I'm Fucking AWAKE

At this fucked up hour of the morning.

And I don't mind.

Heading off to work shortly, but I wanted to tell you what I fucking found out yesterday. Horses have giant sized COCKS. Man, I learned how to wash the fucking thing. And when I say GIANT, I mean it's longer than my fucking arm!!!

Balls bigger than my fist.

Now SHUT THE FUCK UP all you out there that are thinkin I'm fucking turned on by this. NOT TURNED ON. Freaked. Amazed. But not the fuck turned on.

Just FUCK OFF!!!

This Job ROCKS!!!

Okay, so I got me this job at a horse farm now. Show horses. And what I got to do is take care of them and get them ready for the trainer.

So far my days are pretty much mucking out stalls, grooming the horses, cleaning tack, putting the stuff on the horses and taking them out to the guy to ride. Then cooling them off, cleaning them up, and putting them back in their stalls.

A lot of them have shit they have to wear in their stalls like leg wraps or these wraps around their necks.

Then, when everything else is done, I feed them.

Then boss says come the warmer months there's shows that we'll be going to around the area.

And I fucking LOVE IT!!!!!!!

BORING!!!

God damn but my life is boring.

I do the lunch waitressing thing during the day, practice with the guys, play a gig or two, AND THAT'S MY FUCKING WEEK.

Oh, and get this, they deduct my pay if I break anything. Or if anyone skips out without paying. And I've gotta pay half for anything I eat or drink. I ain't sure it's worth it.

I need another job.

My FEET HURT!

So's my ASS.

This job is SO NOT WORTH IT!

I hate this fucking job. I hate people. I hate that they FUCKING have to GRIPE about every little FUCKING THING. Too hot, too cold, not enough.

FUCK OFF! Don't you people get it? You're spending less than ten bucks here, save it for someone that CARES!

They're sucking the life right outta me.

Where the FUCK am I?

Who fucking wants to know?

Okay. I haven't been keepin ya all up to date, so here's a quick rundown.

Digger has moved in with me. But not IN with me.

There's more people in the house all the time now, but that's okay. Sort of. Well, I kind of HATE it, but I don't have no choice.

I haven't been fucked since...

I really miss being fucked. I really WANT to get fucked.

Shit.

PEOPLE SUCK!

Hey folks, just had to fucking vent. Ya know???

So I got this day job at this bar we've played gigs at. I'm just there to wait tables for the lunch crowd. Figured it wouldn't be too bad. Don't have to get up too early, don't have to work too long. Still have my nights for the band.

What I didn't figure was that people are shits. Well, I knew there were shits out there all along, but man, I'm just trying to get your fucking lunch. And how fucking picky can you be about a $6.50 sandwich platter?

Tips? Like you're payin me for extra service? Tell you what, you keep that dollar, and I'll think about not spitting on your cheeseburger.

God damn, fucking son of a bitch!

My thanks

I just had to stop in and thank all the great folks that left their good wishes for me.

What happened to me taught me a few hard lessons. Ones I'm still coming to grips with. I guess the biggest one is that I'm not as smart as I think I am. That's a tough one to take.

Outside of that, I'm doing ok. Getting better.

I think you're the best Renegade.

And I loved the card Outis.

As for the rest that left comments, they really did help. Whether you knew me or not didn't matter. You gave me your support. I can't even think of a word to tell you how great that is.

Digger and the guys have picked up extra work so that I don't have to go out with men anymore for money. We're going to keep it that way.

And this blog? I'll be back eventually. I'm just not ready yet.

Luv you all.

For those of you I don't you can FUCK OFF!!!